As graduation approaches, I find that I’m even less willing to believe that this chapter of my life is closing than I was in high school. The idea that the friends I’ve made will scatter across the country and that the experiences I’ve had will fade into my past is something I can’t fully process yet in the chaos of completing my senior year. I can’t even begin to make plans for the next year of my life yet either, as I am still waiting for multiple applications to come back to assess my options. This only makes it harder to process the closing of my undergraduate career, because there is so much uncertainty in where I will be this time next year I keep clinging to the certainty and familiarity of college. I know what is happening (as much as any student does anyway) and where I am and what to expect in the next few hours, days, and weeks. But beyond that, beyond convocation, I still have no idea. So instead of mentally preparing myself for the next step I find myself sinking further into the rhythm and familiarity of my life as an undergraduate, unsure of what will happen when it ends, unsure of whether it can end.

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So this is the slightly awkward place where I'm supposed to describe myself in like two sentences. I am a Chemistry/Pre-Vet major aiming to become a zoo vet someday. I'm into BBC shows, fantasy novels, and staying up way too late with my roommates. I spent a summer in Italy studying organic chemistry and getting lost on the train system, and now I'm in Australia, studying instrumental chemistry and getting lost on the bus system. I guess some things never really change.

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